Lover Of My Soul

Four years ago this week a family friend brought a slip of paper to my husband with Psalm 23 handwritten. He asked Robin to pray the Psalm daily. Every morning Robin would faithfully take the piece of paper out and recite it. Even at the end of his ALS battle, when he could barely utter a word, he would have me read Psalm 23 to him. It changed his life. One scripture. It has taken four years, time alone to reflect and the unraveling of a nation for me to grasp the magnitude of the power behind this prayer.

We are all familiar with the battle cry “even though I walk in the shadow of death I will fear no evil“. This Psalm; however, is not about the end of life as I originally assumed. No, it is about the One who gives life! I believe this Psalm could save us all. Right now, yep, in this very moment in history.

When I’ve been asked to professionally speak about the year we battled ALS I’ve done a mediocre job, at best, describing that moment in time. I have yet to come up with any other word than “supernatural“. Those that witnessed it? They concur. We watched in awe as the Holy Spirit transformed my husband in front of our eyes. He transformed our lives. It was the most beautifully heart breaking eleven months of my life. It was beautiful because we had a front row seat to witness glory. Heartbreaking because we finally got life so perfectly right with so little time left to live.

When we examine how we respond to extraneous relationships and circumstances it is in direct correlation to how we feel inside. Most of us look for someone our entire lives to fulfill that need to be seen, heard, known and loved. Our response to the world is largely based on how that void inside is or isn’t filled. Psalm 23:3 tells us “He refreshes and restores my life; He leads me along the right paths for His name’s sake.” God desires to fill and meet all of our needs. God is promising us a renewed life in Him. He is the lover of our soul! He knows us intimately. He knows every hair on our head. He is the only One who can fulfill us.

My husband died at peace. He had confessed his sins to God. He had forgiven everyone he needed to forgive and he spent the last eleven months of his life praising God, offering thanks, laughing hysterically and loving everyone who crossed his path–even the difficult to love. This started me thinking, what if we all confessed our sins, forgave freely and meditated on Psalm 23:3? What if for the next month the whole country just forgave? What if we didn’t doubt or ask questions? What if we just read the words of Psalm 23 and waited for the Holy Spirit? What a wonderful world it could be.

We Are Only Passing Through, People

Yesterday as I worked on a presentation, fought a migraine, and listened to various news outlets talk about the mass shootings that occurred over the weekend, I was struck by the sheer terror the media is feeding into this country via our televisions.

 

The media is feeding the frenzy by doing op ad pieces on buying body armor that can be worn out in public to protect you while shopping.  Another news outlet did a story on teaching children escape routes in Target and Walmart. They featured a military officer demonstrating  effective ways to barricade yourself in an aisle should there be an active shooter. 

 

Next, every major news outlet started in on the President by blaming his policy and politics for the shootings. I had to turn it off. Let me say this to you:   these shootings have absolutely nothing to do with the Office of the President nor did any of the shootings when our last President was in office. This is the media feeding the frenzy which happens to be us. And we are buying into it hook line and sinker!

 

These massacres were absolute tragedies. But by giving airtime to the shooters we are doing nothing but immortalizing evil. We also are numbing our population to pain. Between gang violence, robberies, lifelike video violence, sci-fi movies, nightly news murders, drive-by shootings, we as a country have become like the sex addict who becomes immune and craves more and more because they can no longer feel.

 

Do you know what this says to me? Several things, if we as a country are terrified of leaving this world then we are not prepared to meet The King of Kings. I don’t mean we don’t fight to keep ourselves safe, and we aren’t intentional in our surroundings but my goodness, we are to live in the freedom of Christ. I’ve experienced just about the worst that life has to offer. And I survived. So now that I’ve survived? I pretty much want to stick around and see what the second act is going to look like, Amen?! But should something horrible happen to me? It won’t be horrible because I know in the blink of an eye I will feel no pain and I will be caught up with my Savior forever whole, healed and in his presence forever. We are only passing through, people. This ain’t forever.

 

The second thing I’ve gathered is that the enemy most certainly thinks his time is extremely short. If he didn’t? We would not be experiencing this amped up, over the top, hard to wrap your brain around, warped, sick, evil, violence. He is in an all-out war to capture as many of God’s people as he thinks he can.  Remember, scripture tells us that every knee shall bow and every tongue will confess (Romans 14:11). God does not want anyone– no one– to perish without the opportunity of having everlasting life with Him. The enemy is running as fast as he can to seek, kill and destroy all that he can before they have a chance to say “yes” to the Lord. Funny, we all will go before him, every single one of us, saved and unsaved, to have that opportunity to choose.

 

So that’s my two cents. Pray for the peace that surpasses all understanding for the victims’ families. Pray for comfort for them—they didn’t get to say goodbye or I love you. Their grief will be great. Pray for our law enforcement in this country. Pray for our politicians both Democrats and Republicans that they will put politics aside and humanity in the front. Pray for all Americans.

 

“How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone.”-James 4:14